- I am vulnerable. It is humbling to be unclothed before others. it is humbling to need help with the basics of life. I can't just push through everything. I don't have all of the answers. Even when I do things "right" it may not work out perfectly or get done as fast as I wish it would. I am not as in control as I wish I was.
- It is hard to ask others for help. I see this all the time with others in need. Now I feel it. I don't want to be a burden. I want to be competent. I feel better about myself when I am giving. My biggest emotions and frustrations in the past week have been when I am not able to help my wife. This isn't about her willingness to serve me or her ability or strength. Mostly it is about how I want to see myself.
- I'm not as alone as I choose to be. One of my weaknesses - and this shows up with my kids, my marriage, my community involvement, at the church... - is that I don't include others in what I am doing. This journey has been really light for me because so many people have quickly and even joyfully taken on my responsibilities so that I can rest and recover. Thank you to each of you who has stepped up. You not only helped me in the short term but you have shown me a different way of living - more connected, more communal.